teachers day

hiaz...
todae teachers day n i havn got any present for a single teacher... feeling guilty... wats e use of buying present anyways??? huh... nyways... todae veri terrible day... fun thou... first ting in da morn wake up at 430... then went sch for decorations.... pissed wit da leaders... so un united...esp tt bloody eye... kelvin's pants was spilled over by h2o... then next is performance... almost forfited da dance coz da first round simply sux... den cd broke coz two assholes [pardon] wer playing nd it broke... culd be an accident but culd be prevented... then pissed of luckily they had enough time to burn another cd... so our dance hav to be squeezed last performance... then sme fights between da eva class... den cry cry... then went to my house wit mcm minus nora [coz she went wit diapers] then drink water n stuff [mum saw me werin punk o.f. n she didn mind... unbelievable] then while goin to lrt wit mcm minus n mich's sandals '"kapiang'" coz lis stepped on it... den she hav to go hme change slippers... then while in da lrt kelven noticed he forgot his ez link in sch so he went bak...then in da movie suppose to watch cinderela stori but end up watchin da face coz c.s. havn come out... then me n bro waited like hell coz rest of e mcm went bakt o thier p sch... then nora was late so i tell da uncle gaurding da cinema to jus let nora in... stup rite??? i noe... then movie was nice but i was distracted coz was thinkin of '"somethin'" then after movie was sad coz cnt get my mind of tt "'smethin'"... then took neo print wit da whole of mcm which was also horrible n hav to waste money for 2 shots n ibro n kelv didn bring dosh so nora n i hav to pay for'em... then luckily jane, shirley n peiwen came to da rescue to help us wit da neoprint stuff coz everythin was in jap n culdn understand a single thing... then went hme... got separated... took lrt wit nor... n tts e worse day of da week... thak you... evrybody tel me i punk todae... yuck... but i like it... hair... clothes... nails... make up... bling bling... i luked haf angel haf demon... no no... 3/4 angel, 1/4 demon... teacher's day rulz!!!

my hart's 2 heavy tt i cnt take it
wuld smebody tear it out from wihtin
smbody i beg u pls rip it out for me
coz its ful of burdens and sins

to love someone hu doesn care
tts da craziest ting smeone wuld do
to to show ur feelings
but in da end it hurts you

tt person is ur soul
but to her ur non-existent
ur jus a shadow tailing by
folowing wenever that person went

silently watching from afar
jus seeing da person
n ur day is complete
u noe she's hapi n ur content

eventhou ur not beside her for now
u will be wen she's in trouble
wipe away her tears n carry the pain
bear wit it even ur feet wobles

eventhou she has smeone else
u'l make sure tt da person cares
it's ok if ur not da one
as long as she's smilin' evrytme, evrywer

pain is life
life is fren
fren is pain

you suck

to somebody:::
haiz.... looks like i'm out of da curse. i dun care abt da times we were together. im grateful for wat u did in da past. but it was overshadowd by ur negativity. i beged u not to hurt her but u still did. ur way too sensitive. ur gona lose evrythin if u stay lyk tt. how many times hav i said u suck [which is tru] n how many times hav u said i suck [which can be tru]. its not leveled. remember not to do to others wat u dun want others to do to u.

to another somebody:::
i jus wan u to know tt i cre for you. i jus wan u to be hapy. as long as ur hapi im hapi too. but wen ur sad same goes to me. eventhou im not e source of ur hapines its ok. eventhou u dun notice i'm there for ya, its ok wit me. too bad u dun feel mutual. it hurts but ur smile relives da pain.

today 8pm wats da show???
singapore idol!!!
wow u guys rox man!!!
benjamin damn cute!!!
calvin reminds me of someone... eewwww....
david de cruz too action...
david teo is a good boy not an ah beng!!!
oli rulz!!! god her voice damn good man
but jeassea is e best performer tonight...
spore idol rulz!!!

busted

YOU SUCK!!!
YOU SUCK!!!
YOU SUCK!!!
YOU SUCK!!!
YOU SUCK!!!
YOU SUCK!!!

tired

for 15 years...
i've been luking for smebody to love...
luking for hapiness in different wrong places...
seems like he's the only one hu can mke me hapi...

i'm not dedicated to her as i'v felt b4...
i dun wan tt to hapen but it has to...
coz its ment to be tt way
i love her but she doesn
i wuld give up everything but she wont
oil n water dun mix togehter...
but her face is engraved in my hart...
i dun wan her to cry
tts y im trying my best not to let tt hapen..
but its no use...
maybe jus love her n expect nth in return...
tats wat real love is....
sana alam niya...
ppl ar realy blind huh....

sickening

why is it always like that???
it's damn sickening men!!!
keep on repeating the same situation!!!
argh!!!

napaka sensitibo mo!!!
wala naman masamang ginagawa nagagalit ka!!!
ano bang paki ko sayo!!!
ang iniisip ko lang eh si daga hindi ikaw...
gagong ungoy!!!
napakabakla mo!!!
hindi dapat ganyan ka emo ang mga lalaki!!!
unreasonable!!!
kaya lang pinagpapasensyahan kita kasi she cares about you!!!
kung hindi matagal na kita iniwan!!!
meh hindi ko makayanan yung ugali mo or bunganga mo or kilos mo!!!
argh!!! galit akon sayo!!! napaka unreasonable!!!
hay wala akong masabi!!!
nakakainis!!!

u only need patience if u want somebody bak...
time will work for you...
time is meaningful than any other treasures in this space...
it hurts to see my beloved friends in distress...

angel

wat if u have feelings for someone
wuld u tell tat person u do
or wuld u just keep silent
and then let da world be

ur afraid of being rejected
tat is why u dun giv a clue
as long as she's doin fine
ur glad by wat u see

ur jus an angel
watching over her
da fact tat she doesn't know
makes da thorns plunge in deeper
but da agony doesn't matter
as long as u stil see her around
no one knows tat ur lookin
coz she's up there and ur down

u always wana be there for her
wen she helplessly needs to lean
to protect her from her fears
and to carry her home

it wil rip r hart out wen she cries
becoz to u she is a queen
who must not be in distress
and never be lone

wen she's around
earth revolves too fast
but wen she's gone
time wil start to rust
waitin for her
seems too endlessly
but stil u wil
she holds destiny

people

i hate studying....
but i know i have to...

to all e ppl over there:::
remember to tink b4 u act...
coz u might hurt some one if u dun...
if u wana discriminate ppl
imagine if u wer on tat smebody's shoe...
ur life is condemned if u mke a single person cry
to all K.A.N. members

magician

magician

i am being hypnotised
see tat whirl in my eyes
im forever lost in ur smile
being unconscious all da while

say watever you command
anything i will do
with a snap of ur fingers
say da magic words: i luv u

everytime you come around
out of my hat comes a thousand hare
hopping endlessly on the ground

everytime you hold my hand
my agony disappears in thin air
with the flick of ur magic wand

abra-kadabra, alikazer
u can seprate my heart in two
nd you can fuse it back together
not even magic wil work, only you

inside the deck
choose one of the cards
let me read your mind
is it the queen of hearts

poem for my love

a poem for my love

thousand nights i lay on my bed
tryin' to write a letter in my head
how i treasure the words u had said
glad u pulled me out of the dead

i just cnt explain it in words
how i long for ur inevitable touch
to be lost in the look of ur eyes
and impart how i luv u so much

i wish i culd hold your hand forever
and never ever let go
missing you every time were not together
i want to be stuck with you

i whisper your name first thing in the morning
at night ur the last thing on my mind
making you laugh is worth living
ur sedative smile takin' me into an undulating ride

ur the inspiration behind my pieces
writing a poem about ur insidious kisses
im pertinacious about our song
wanting to keep you for so long

hollywood star

so many times this song is played
rewinding the situaition over and over again
repeating the same old series
wondering when is this season going to end

the novel is too heart ripping
sometimes i forget to follow the script
the director shouting "cut"
but the film is still recording

in front of the camera i try to laugh
but behind the scene being fraud is enough
i try to act like normal
but the story is just to dismal

why am i so stupid to make such an unreasonable decision
i thought by letting go it will end the session
that the agony will just disappear with the commotion
everybody, even my heart, told me to hold on
but i told myself i will move on
i threw away the platinum price i had won

but where the hell is the encore
everywhere's a silent moore

the moral of the play lost its point
apathy is left, need someone to anoint
now i regret what i did
what was the reason why i planted the seed
i didn't realy have a valid excuse to let go
when your the spotlight during the show

now it's againts all odds
if i get you back
appalingly strong was the impact
but day and night i will ask God
what's impossible when you believe
every ounce of my faith i will give

i'm sorry if i mauled you
please accept my act of contrition
my conscience is killing me
delinquent to the core, what to do

i was inimical, considered demented
insane that i came into that equation
lunatic because of my iniquity
it didn't turn out what i had intended

i know this poem is too hacknedeyed
but i just want to tell you a thousand times why
i wanted a pause, an interlude
because my role is just too crude

sinner

i'm drunk yard
too much your loving wine
i'm insane
i talk to myself, saying how your so fine

i'm a gambler
trying my luck in this relationship
i'm an addict
and your my drug i wana sip

i'm loner
when i'm without you
i'm a prostitute
immolate my soul too

i'm a killer
if anyone tries to hurt my baby
i'm a criminal
locked up in the prison of you heart
i'm a robber
i'll steal high quality
and give it to you
all my feelings im gonna impart

although i got no dignity
because of all my iniquity
you induce me to change from bieng unable
to live a life so impeccable
you persuaded my to walk in righteousness
instead of living in a world of darkness

i was deaf
but you sang a melodious song to my ears
i was mute
but you were my voice through this years
i was blind
beacude of all the kinds of wickedness
but now i'm binded by your love and kindness

now you know i'm disabled without your presence
i need you to hold me in your guidance
to keep track of my conscience

so i wanna thank you for what you've done
you encouraged me to hold on

orphan

rappers:::
khad
nurul
aifah
aten
atie
pet

yamakaze:::
farid
aimi
ali
kim
faiz
ibro???

inkano siempfoma:::
ibro
yuen
azu

me nowhere to go...
wahhhhhhh...
huhuhu.....
orphan....
somebody adopt me

the village

you know the movie???
it sux!!!
the story's quite lame
the effects are fine
some parts can be cosidered heart stopping
but the movie's so worthless

well if you ask me...
i would give everything for that movie
i would spend more than 8 bucks on that film
in fact i would give a million
just to be there
just to have that moment
i wish i could rewind time, then press play on that part
over and over again
or even pause that moment and be stuck on it forever
my wish came true at last

haiz... my happiness overwhelming
all my misery just vanished
i thank God with the whole of my bieng
three of us just holding hands in the middle of our fears
...
but still the movie sux!!!

malungkot

if you're happy and you know it clap your hands
-silence-
after ten years::::
clap, clap, clap.
mwahahaha....

these are my confessions:::
i'm stupid
i sux
i'm clumsy
childish
selfish
yup... thats me...
i confess to the whole world...
regret... aku rindu kau
haiz wish i could turn back time
my pride is to high
or maybe i'm just scared
even i don't know who i am
and i dont what to do...
i have to ask people what should i do
coz my brain no use...
I'M STUPID!!!

let go

aargh...
why is this happening...
asal...
i have to leave you forever...
coz i just cant bear with the pain
but who would be so stupid...
why would a sick person let go of its cure...

though my heart is being smashed like hell
though the pain i can't take
i still have to let you go
i want you with all my heart
but i think the best thing to do is to let you go

the pain you feel [if you feel anything]
its multiplied my 1oo
on how i feel it happening

i miss all the times we were so happy together
your laughter is echoed in my head
i want you back!!!
but you don't

my love for you is true
more truthful than anything in the past
first time a found a friend like you
i wish we could be together forever

the promise that i made..
i said it from the bottom of my heart
i want to keep it forever
but maybe you don't

the pain that i feel everytime i ignore you
but till the end of time i will still love you
you can ask anyone of my closest friend
how painful it is
how much i love you
i've told them my feelings
its infinte

now i'm letting you go
at the same time...
i'm also letting go of the reason why i live

but if you want me
call my name
tell me you want me back
tell me you feel the same

sakit

ahhh damn men...
its so slashing my heart out...
God...
wish i could die. cant take it.
so painful. agony, anguish, distress, misery, suffering, pain...
argh!!!
youre the only one who can take it all away.
even though i hang out with other ppl im still thinking of you.
one of i kind, cant be replaced
you said she's your soul
and wenever u see her happy ur happy too
if i hug her its as if im huging u too
but
i'd rather be wit u than be wit them.
honestly men. telling the bloody truth.
pls dun ignore me.
all memories flashing back
i just cant write my feelings all out
no words can explain it.
di ko na kaya
bakit mo ko palagi sinasaktan
mahal na mahal kita
pero ginaganito mo ko
ang sakit
ur the only person hu made me cry
the person who you love most
ends up to be the one hu hurts you the most
if you dun want me then fine!
then im leaving you!
eventhough life will be worthless if i wuld do tt
SAKIT!!!
paalam na aking mahal...
kay hirap sabihin...
paalam na aking mahal...
kay sakit limutin...
but i have to let go...

thankyou

it took sometime
for me to notice
now i find that it rhymes
now it all comes to this

just want you to know
wana let it show
dont wana let u go
just follow the flow

all my achievements
the root is u
all my succes
its because of the things u do
now i'm gonna take this moment
to show my gratitude
thanks for the encouragement
introducing a new altitude

sometimes i might make you
disappointed in meagitated with me
it also makes me feel blue

just wana let u know
it causes sorrow
those things i just regret
wish i could make u forget

xie xie ni
youre the reason why the world goes round
terima kasih
u make my life an exciting ground
nandree
intimate companion i have found
just wana thank you thank you